Feelings

Do you ever feel as if you keep your true thoughts and opinions to yourself just to keep the peace? I only ask because lately I seem to be doing that a lot, all to keep other people happy. However in doing this, I feel like all the things I'm leaving unsaid are building up inside me, and I'm waiting to just explode from it all. I guess I don't like confrontation, and most of the time I'd rather agree with whatever is being said, just to stop upsetting or annoying anyone. Probably not a good thing to do as in the process I just seem to sit and stew in my true feelings. For example this week, I've been feeling quite let down and disappointed after someone who promised they would be there for me basically hasn't been and although I've tried confronting them, they just don't understand or care enough to ... care really. I really don't know what to do for the best, and I'm really hoping this whole situation ends soon, one way or another.

Jealousy

I've been thinking about this a lot lately, jealousy. It's a horrible thing, and I know people are often divided  on whether or not it's a good emotion to feel. For example in a relationship, some people consider it to be healthy, saying that it's good to know that whoever you're with feels strongly enough about you to get jealous. Others may say it's a bad thing, if you allow yourself to get jealous is there no trust in your relationship?

For me personally I think it's somewhere in the middle. For example, my relationship. I get jealous easy, and it's not that I don't trust my boyfriend, I'm just an insecure person. But equally, if he gets jealous over me, I like that he cares enough to be jealous. I still would rather neither of us got jealous, it's such a horrible emotion. I hate the feeling of worry and the ache that I might not be good enough. It's stupid.

Anyone else get this?

A bit about me....

I don't know what made me decide to start a blog. I love writing, I suppose that's a big part of it, but I can't help but feel there's something more to it. Sometimes I feel like I have too many thoughts inside my head, I over think everything, and this might help me get some of it out, and in the process, stop my head from exploding.

I suppose I should start by saying a bit about me. I'm a 17 year old girl, rather normal life, nice family, lovely boyfriend etc.. I'm currently scouring everywhere possible for a job as college didn't seem like the right path for me  to take. Not that I even have a clue what path I want to take, but at 17 how many people actually know for sure what they want to do? So for now i'm trying to not stress too much over it.

I'm hoping to use this blog as somewhere for me just to talk freely, about anything and the thoughts in my head. Hey maybe I'll even entertain some people! I'll leave it for tonight though, so goodnight for now!